Kiki baby

29th August 2020

Sitting in the living room right beside Kiki's bed, the night is ticking away and so is Kiki's time on earth. The past few days/weeks have been a rollercoaster ride for both me and my family. Waking up every single day, the first thing is to check on Kiki's condition, if she pooped or peed on herself, and cleaning up after her. Force-feeding her milk because she just didn't want to eat (and now drink). It is IMO the torturous experience I've ever been in because she literally my baby. 

The first time I met Kiki was in 2004, which is a whopping 16 years ago. That is literally 3/4 of my life spent with this doggo. I potty trained her ass, taught her how to climb the stairs as a baby, taught her tricks like bang!! (though she always tryna cheat me by half-assing her bang trick but it's ok I love her more for that). Gonna be honest, Kiki taught me more than what I taught her, You might think what can a dog teach you right? Unconditional love and patience

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14 Aug 2022

Unfortunately, as I was writing that blog, Kiki passed away with me by her side on 29th August 2020 at 10:40PM. It took me quite some time to come back and finish up this post, apart from trying to accept that she's really gone, maybe I'm just trying to avoid feeling the sadness..? 

Recalling the night before she passed, I was sitting on the floor in the living room and she came to me weakly. It feels like a bid goodbye, perhaps, she already knew that her time was running up and giving me the last TLC she could. I was playing the song 专属天使 (Guardian Angel) then, and now i'm wondering if my guardian angel bb is doing fine in the land of happiness.

I love you forever and more, and indeed there isn't a day I don't miss you. People tell me all the time that time will heal, but all it did do is let tears not fall that easily anymore. Miss you my bao bao.

    

    

Gap Year

I've realised that I have been starting every blog post with "wow it's been so long", "wow it's been 6 months", "wow it's been a year" and that is not going to change as of now.

Wow it's been a year since I've graduated from Singapore Polytechnic!

Dead ass felt like it was just yesterday when i joined SP and now i'm about to enter another phase of my life.  If you're here, I'm guessing you are following my spam account and probably know that I've been accepted into SMU *screams* This is going to really cringeworthy but SMU is like dream school. *still screaming*. Honestly have no idea if this perception is going to change when i enter but as of now just let me be hApPy.

Here's 5 little milestones/happening in my life for the past 1/2 year when i'm missing from blogspot:

1. GRADUATED

Yes, previous post is pretty much a dedication post for everyone who's been part of my poly life but I didn't really write about my graduation (probably because i wrote that before the grad ceremony). It's pretty cool to catch all your friends back in school, probably the last day you'll get to see everyone together again. It was a cloudy morning, probably God knows in the midst of this celebratory event, it actually marks the day of separation. 

All in all, great day to be catching up with everyone else and really happy to be seeing everyone who have been really supportive of me there during the ceremony to celebrate this milestone with me! 

2. TWENTY ONE

And yes, this Xiao Mei Mei is now twenty one now! (actually turning 22 soon ugh)

Always thought about how my 21st birthday will be like, would it be boring as usual or am i going to make it a "huge" one for memory sake. Decided to go with a really chill birthday party, serving pizzas with beers. Booked a room in Goodwood Park Hotel, all's good except that it wasn't meant for gatherings so I was constantly "chased" by the management to lower the volume/chase my guest out. 

3. BANDWAGON

Joined Bandwagon as an intern for the gap year and learnt a great deal of stuff. (not being sarcastic in case you're thinking that I am). First week into joining, I was invited to attend Shawn Mendes' concert in Singapore. I'm like SIGN ME THE FUCK UP????? Ok kidding I didn't say that. 

Attended so many concert under the name of Bandwagon, and come to know so many talented artiste too. My current blog song at the side is a song from Mac Ayres and I love his vocals and music style so much? Before I joined Bandwagon, my knowledge of music is just the scrap and surface, but now I can safely say that I am now more knowledgeable and informed.

4. TRAVELED
Actually traveled to quite a number of places after graduation. Went to Taiwan with my Fam, HongKong with Amelia & Chanel, Phuket + Bangkok with Shelly and co. Of all places, I must say Taiwan is the best of all?! Love the weather, the food, the people, the company and everything about it! Missing my beef cubes and chilly weather : - (

Watch my journey in Taiwan here: 

5. CONCERTS

Like i mentioned earlier, I've went to tons of concerts this year and these few are the highlights!!!

One of my favourite boi, Danny was in Singapore on March. Managed to cop a ticket to one of his 3 shows in Singapore. Was very much into the show that I didn't managed to shot any good videos (no regrets tho). Watching all the fancams of his concert on Youtube and i'm like ded... bring me back!

Another highlight is to finally catch FKJ live?!?! Missed him the other time round and this time managed to get a free ticket under Bandwagon. Not to forget that I caught Masego live last year too. AAAA DREAMS COME TRUE.



Hopefully, I'll come around another time (which is not a year later) HAHA
Cyaz

Gotta fill in the gap.

It's like a year since my last post, and 3 years since i entered poly (i still can't believe that i graduated). It felt like it was yesterday when i just posted the blog post about my camp. I have so much to say to fill in the gap for the period where i disappeared, but i have no idea where to start. 

Y E A R 2   

If you were to ask me, to be honest, i cannot really distinguish which year did the images in my head happened, but i'll just agar agar la! 

First thing that came up to my mind during Year 2, would be ABE CAMP XTREME 2015. It is where we have a training camp for the year 1s to select the potential group leaders, game master and committee members for the next year's orientation camp. I was very lucky to be selected as the group leader this time round together with xiaocutie (Sherman) for our cute team, FireStorm.

Pictures might or might not be in order, do take note that the pictures i included are probably me or my group because i can't be bothered to save thousand over pictures for a blogpost (roll eyes emoji) but i'll still try and caption it accordingly. bold try bold. (edit: i realize i didn't even bother to caption them but picture speaks louder than words, right?)

 I just have to include this picture because they be poppin and lookin cute.

 firestorm managed to end this camp with some award but i forgot what was it really about lmao. (blame it on my memory) 

 the gl team, named GALACTUS : - ) 

and to be honest i have no idea but i'm guessing the y1 & y2 depm group picture below.

All in all, this camp is definitely one of the most memorable camp that i have been to in Poly (ok fine i've only been to like 4 but still) and i'm really glad that i managed to join this camp together with ma 03 friendies and other abe mates!

Another big thing that happened during year 2 that i could remember very clearly was when i went to the toilet and... no im kidding, it's obviously the final year project that i was really headache about. Halloween @ Downtown East (2015) 

The video that is done by me for the showcase, please pardon the music selection because i just looked the longest song ever so that i would not trouble myself to do the cutting etc. 

Y E A R 3 

* to be continued because it's blood 3.30AM right now and i can't function *
Year 3 passes really quickly, all i really remember from sem 1 is just me working every single day for internship while sem 2 is just me studying and doing assignments everyday at Starbucks/school/home till late.

So... what happened was during the second semester of year 2, we actually get to choose the company that we want to intern at and went for an "interview". I managed to get in to Cityneon as an intern together with Yiting (Thank God because at least i have someone i know yas).

Pictures above featured our cityneon dajie mens and fellow intern mates during Communic Asia which i was a coordinator (which means that my job scope for CMMA consist of liaising, collating of orders and other administrative work). Comparing to Food & Hotel Asia, where i was the assistant hall manager, a project coordinator is way more chill physically but ya gotta know being stuck in the office isn't the best too. 

While juggling with Internship, i had to go back to school every Monday for Psychology lessons. Thinking back, i don't know how did i still make it for every single lesson but still thankful that i managed to pull thru because guess who passed :- ) Time really flies because when CMMA come to an end, it was about time where we leave to go back to school to prepare our asses for sem 2 but me and my friends decided to make full use of this short break to go overseas (i will have another post that will be dedicated to that trip so stay tune yaaa) 

Below are some of the pictures taken during the last semester of year 3! 

This was during Amelia's birthday, i kinda forgot what we did after this. . . . . where did we go again?!

This was the day after our last lesson in school, before we are given study breaks for our final run!

Honestly, i miss this bunch so much!!!!!!!!!!!! You might call me crazy but i'm already missing school. 

Like what i said earlier, i can't really remember every little things that happened because i have a really bad memory (God knows why, it's like age is catching up with me). Still, if you're reading this and you're part of my poly life, i'm thankful for ya presence because it's a blessing (maybe not but lets just assume you are great HAHA). I might post more often now that i have all the time in life to wait for uni, so a grad post and all my overseas trip post might be coming up soon! : ^ )

Till then, bye!

vibe

I'm leaving, but the thing is..

i don't know when to stop.

2015

wao 

6 months past like vroom vroom that i thought i just updated yesterday aha.

One of the few things that i remembered from my vacation week will probably be freshman orientation week! 

First time being part of camp in school as committee, game master and it's fun! (not easy)

Here's candid shot of the entire committee, Cegasus! 

What we game masters (those in red bandana) have to do is basically execute games and be the face behind the ghost during night walk. Might seem easy but it's not, trust me.... We spent almost the entire of our vacation in school for lots of training and (erm...) test which i shall not elaborate on. It was really hard and tough for all of us, but thankfully most of us stayed on and made this camp enjoyable heh heh heh 

I must say AURIGA (our name) definitely became more bonded from where we started in the beginning, always kena tekkan and all have made us who we are right now (HA)

love y'all!!!!!!!!

Here's some snippets of the camp.....

HANG ON!!! Not forgetting being a emcee for performance night was so nerve-wrecking but i'm glad it's over! Cheers to my partners for the night, Sherman and Zhenpang!  

Enough of camp, time for me. 

Didn't know where did i get that thinking to join Dip+ but i managed to get in Applied Psychology (BA) with my essay writing skills or not (our requirement is to write a 300 word essay). Together with the other modules that i'm obliged to take in my course, it's taking a toll on me. 

One of the few modules that i already dread is undoubtedly SIP, well well welcome to year 2. Not forgetting logistic as well as environment (short form because the name of the module is too long so i could only remember the first word) SIP and BA is nerve-wrecking at first because new class new friends to be or not, one word to describe? Awkward. 

Through new classes really made me realize how i really like my classmates,,,, i love y'all 03.

IP which is our FYP is starting on Wednesday (we're gonna meeting our client first time after our interview so lets hope that it'll be a fruitful one)  I know i'm too early for that but please come down to Downtown East if you're looking for a place to go for Halloween /wriggle eyebrows/

Been thinking how do i end this, so here's my squad #squadgoals #rsgoals #woohoo 

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